One Day Goals Met and Taco Tuesday

Conquered day one of the drying out process and even sweetened the deal with a challenge between me and EMM.  If I make it one week cold turkey without having any beers, then the benefit and reward will be given behind closed doors woohoo!!! Even though last evening was easy, or thereabouts-not to say I didn't think about it, I was definitely fidgety and had a hard time going to sleep but I think we both did, even tho the intimacy was amazing and very intense.  Once I got to sleep I was able to sleep soundly like a baby I think and slept good and despite always being tempted to sleep in, got up and got logged into the office and got the day started.  
Finally got all of my transcipts received downloaded and sent off to UMGC and have figured out to chase down the remaining credits needed to complete the bachelors degree in Social Science with a minor in psychology.  I have two goals, one which is short/medium term and one that might take longer than a year or two with work and RWB stuff to get done.  This plus the plan to get back in shape and stronger with walks, bike rides and such. Improving of myself and continuing to take things one day at a time and make things easier for me and everyone else connected to me.  Making things hopefully good to go for myself and expanding our living lives here at Silverwood and then sharing that with Samantha and Logan via the Cruze and doing some upgrades to our living space with the help of the front office.  Slowly but surely we are on the way to a (as Keith sings about) "A Better Life". 

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