Inaguration Day and Her birthday

 You’ve shared your Dad complained about the house not being clean.  To the point that he blames his leaving her on it.  You (&Frank) mentioned about the cleaning list Mom left you and how you’d rush through it at the end of the day.  I’m wondering if somehow you internalized Dad's complaints to mom about house as you not being good enough at helping her.  Like if you had cleaned better you could have protected her.  This is when you were little not older, well older too but I think younger is the important part.

So today has been a historic day with the inauguration of our new POTUS but also our first lady VPOTUS.  As she took her oath it was so special to witness that moment for all the little girls including my own that dream of being President one of these days. What a special moment and so awesome even with all the pomp and stance. Not only is it "Inaug" day but its Emily's birthday and also my Day 1 and hopefully the first of many days in celebrating her but also beating down the feelings and demons that I've been fighting with for many days/years.  Not to mention those demons but also putting the memory of a few people in a closed book and closing those chapters and putting them way in the back to collect dust.   But at the same time learning from some of the pages of those chapters and taking what I've learned as I shared with Katy the other day from both Judy and Melissa, and taking that stuff with me as we, Em and me, move forward and start our lives together in this near year.  This woman is an amazing blessing to my world and is patient with me and understands those demons and knows that I'm trying so I need to get my booty in gear and be adamant try.  Time to get stubborn with it.